After my cloudy and rainy days before, I'm a bit scared of any happiness. Especially when I know that the happiness is temporary. It's just a random dream that I have to leave behind when I'm awaken by a slap in my face.
No happiness seems real for me. And if it's a dream, no dream seems to come true.
I just read some of my old posts. I tried to remember every situations happened at the time I made them. Some posts gave me spirit to go through these days. Those posts remind me not to hold on to any hope. Stay away from any fears. Live happily, and smile.
And I feel much better now :)
