My Worst Night. Or Will There Be Some More?

"He doesn't need me,". I kept on saying to myself. In the dark room, when I lied on my bed. "He doesn't need me,".
I whispered the words while my tears were falling down. I turned my body under the blanket. I tried to sleep and I closed my eyes. But my lip couldn't stop saying and my body kept on shivering. "He doesn't need me,". I heard myself talking, again.
I told the cold air hundreds of words. I pretended there was him. Talked to me right in my ear. I answered everything "he" said to me. But when the words came out of his mouth, I could just shut my mouth and scream.
"I don't need you,". It haunted me in my sleep. I woke up, hoping the sun had risen and I had to get up. But no. Again, and again. It was still night. Sun was still sleeping.
I could finally sleep and I was awaken by the morning rush. And all I could get was his message.
"Go away".

..

I'm failed

I can't do anything to make you feel grateful
I can't do anything to make you live your life
I can't do anything to make you happy

I'm failed

I can't be your spirit, I can't bring joy, I can't give anything
Even my love can't do that for you

I'm failed
and I feel useless

Hello Engineer!

It's been a long time since my last post. And there are many changes during these last two hectic months. I've done my seminar, sidang, and I have graduated from college :D

The next day after my graduation day, I came to Taiwan to do my exchange, and now I'm in Taiwan and I'll be here until January 2011.

Thank God for everything I got until today :)